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For over a year I've had to go through a lot more grief than I could handle. Some personal matters in my life had some big changes happen to me thats affected me in this timespan. I've had to dig inside myself and pull my insides out over and over, trying to understand how to make my pain go away and why my mind is the way it is. I went through an awful breakup, and some bad stuff happened in my family that re-arranged my dynamic forever.

I've been feeling lost lately, to put it more simply. I've been trying to find myself again. My identity was something I thought I knew, and my passions became blurred and confusing to me about wether or not they connected to who I was.

I've never made a website before, but after some friends helped me start working with HTML, I was able to figure out how to make a space of my own. A little corner of the internet where I wouldn't have to worry about appeasing algorithm to give me permission to who my work comes across.

Learning something new like making a website has allowed me to have fun again with creating, and making something that reminds me of what makes me, me. It also helps me remember what I love, and how I could share it with others. Not only that, but it's so easy to learn from others from making a website too! I wouldn't know what to do if I couldnt inspect element on people's websites to check out their source code and pick it apart. NOT ONLY THAT, but people are so friendly and nice around these parts! Everyone shares what they love, and people love what you share!! I didn't even think I'd receive any comments from strangers on my guestbook!

I feel so grateful to have found this new hobby!!

Also I may or may not have a lot more pictures of Kaiman for my site now lmfao...

-3:39AM